The Closet of Mirrors

Copyright 2014 by Bob Rogers
I was comfortable in a dark closet
Thinking dark thoughts
Doing dark deeds.
Then a brilliant burst of light revealed
That I’m in a closet of mirrors
I see my ugly, naked body everywhere
I cannot escape in any direction
Every wall is a mirror.
Outsiders can see me through the mirror
But I cannot see them
I wonder what they think and what they see
But I can only see me—
The one person I do not want to see.
I want to cover myself
But I have nothing.
I want to drive a nail through the mirror
But I have nothing.
I fall to my knees, curl into a tiny ball
Wailing, whining, whimpering.
Oh, God, kill me! I have nothing! I need you!
Ting…ping…ping…ting…
Softly a nail falls by my side, skipping on the glass
Then two…three…ten…fifty…a hundred…
Nails crash down, crack open
Cutting me — and covering me.
But now I have something
I have a covering—a covering of rusty nails.
And the mirror is broken at last.
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Posted on January 29, 2014, in Poetry, Prayer and tagged atonement, confession, consequences, faith, forgiveness, grace, pain, poem, poetry, sacrifice, sin, suffering. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.
You’re describing, beautifully, a feeling most everyone has felt. It’s heartbreaking to see it articulated.
Bob, if you would look at another person that “failed” God BUT through His marvelous love was forgiven and restored- http://www.butforthegraceofGod.org under trusting God regardless of what I see.
Calvin
Love your words
Its better for us to feel likwise so we will be aware of our deeds whether they are wrong or right